And I feel like I"m the one to blame... I...He told me he was depressed...but he would never say what about...only that he wanted to kill himself... I fooled myself into thinking it was just the medication talking...He pulled through it before...or so I thought...My father and I never had an emotional relationship so I felt like I didn't know what I could do for him if anything... I thought...he was smarter than this...that he had the brain power to heal himself... He kept telling me that he wasn't that strong, but I refused to believe...I believed in the power of his soul and essence...Or was I fooling myself...I don't know..............I just don't know...................................................
